想念

当我想念他的时候，我都会打电话给他
可是结果都是盖电话收场
真的很不开心
可是也不知道是什么改变了我
每当我和他吵架后
我都会看着暗暗的天空
然后去睡觉。。。。睡醒后就当着什么事都不曾发生
我这样做对吗?我不懂
现在我发现原来 想念一个人
不一定要听见他的声音
不一定要打电话给他
也不一定要见到他
因为。。。。
我总是会和你起争吵
把我对你的爱和想念都收在我心理。。。。


[你是用心对我，我呢?]
你是用什么来对我的呢?
我全心全意的对待你一个人
因为。。[123]那句话不适合在用在我和你的身上了



把我的爱都收在心理
我真的想你了。。

当我们同在一起

还记得。。不久前我家乡有间很有名的中化中学办了戏剧。。。。
名字就是=当我们同在一起
听说那戏剧得了很多掌声，很热烈的反应
可是我却错过了那场戏剧
嗯。。其实我也不知道戏剧里的意思
可是有位佳人告诉我
当我们同在一起=意思就是说=当我们在一起
谁能告诉我，当我们同在一起的意义啊??
我可不知道意义在哪里了
因为最近好烦
考试成绩不好
学费也还没交
因为姑姑都没空
都忙这照顾他生病的女儿
我自己也生病刚好
唉。。。我们家每个都在生病
烦阿!!

sick again

haiz...sick again
reali hate it
i had high fever 4 d last 3 days
n yet finally i thought I can get well on Monday
and nt reali
on de 1st day
whn i wanted went bec home frm coll
it's raining cats n dogs..
##$$%^^@@!!shit..
i had 2 be in de rain again
whn i reach home
my head reali feel dizzy
feel like my rum is spining
haiz
fever again
damn it
whn can I get well
and wat hurt me de most
I dun get any concern frm him
none..1 call frm him?1 msg?1 words?
None..

结局

What can I do?What should I do?I can?o..I can't?

How should I describe my feeling right now?
How should I describe my mood right now?
Y I get unhappy more thn happy whn I at Penang?
what is de reason tats made me down?
I can't get de answ..tat's y..I'm unhappy..
At Penang..If I nt v dear o dg...
I will get down 2 de earth...
reali upside down of de earth...haiz~
bt thgs get difference whn I stay at my hometown..
reali difference..I can see it 4 de past 2 weeks I stay at my hometown...
haiz..what can I do?
I really feel alone whn I stay at Penang...
really hard 2 past my time...
It's since 1 hour equals 2 10 hours...
I can't get off my time..
Bt thgs difference whn I at muar..
time since nt enuh..pass so fast..
n I'm happy 2...y?y difference whn I'm in penang?
haiz..I really feel alone..
Gods,pls save me frm tis empty feeling..
It's reali made me suffer n down...

1st lesson~

wahahah~~~2day is my 1st lesson after sem 1 break neh~~
and yet i can't get off my old habit tat hv bn followin' me 4 de past
???year(i oso dun noe hw many years?)hehe^^
maybe since i hv 2 wake up by myself 4 school..kakakak ><
my habit...hahaha---->i can't wake up by time man!!reali neh~
I hv adjust my alarm at 7.45am..alarm RING!!!!!!
bt sleepy n piggy me slp again..gone !!!
I've late!!LATE 4 de first lesson on de first day...wat de xxXXxx!!
sry 4 de fugal words bcz my dear dislike n yet i still scold it~
sorry ya~~~

ooo..I hate late man!If nt my loved one sms me..huh...
I think I will miss de lesson...
Most important is nt de lesson...Tis is bcz~~
Hubby change his time 2 my lec time!!!
I can't miss de lec u noe!!I wan hv lesson 2gthr v him!!
yahahah~~LUCKILY my loved ones sms me at 8.48am n u noe??
my lesson start at 9am..wakakakakaka~~~
DEFINITLY joey late again~~><
M25 Joey Chew awaz late BUT sm1 gonna b Late queen...
nt me~absolutely nt me ok???^^
Them?hw 2 describe?my classmate?3 of them?late since car pooling?
quiet in de class?kinda nice girl?
yahahaha~~there r man!

hahaha~~~whn I reach college I reali walk as fast as I can heading 2 DKB..reali!I swear!
I dun wan 2 miss any more time having 2 gthr v my dear~
kakakakak~~foolish me ya??one will do foolish thgs jz 4 de loved 1~unbelieveable??try it n u will noe...=p
SWEAT!SWEAT!HOT!HOT!
Y DKB so hot hah?reali hot..makes my temper gone 2 highest limit...n yet dg tell me..'It's since dun hv air-cond tis morning"
wat?r u kiddin fren?no air-cond?I pay my fees k?1k++ u noe
huh..reali mad in my heart...bt whn I c my dear all gones....
hahah~~~foolish me again~2nd time..><

Sweet time ~nw begins~kakakakakak~~
2dy dear willing 2 change his lec time neh!!!
suprising me~reali..he's alone!nt v his fren geh~~kakakakak
huh~~fly up sky~
i noe he's bored..no male frens tat chat v him..
n I jz listen 2 lec..copy n paste de info...
I notice tat dear face emotion nt reali gud..
hermmmm..wat can I do?so mani ppl in de hall...
I'm sorry dear..If 2dy u r nt happy v wat u done 4 me..
yahahhaa~~we fns de clas!macroec class damn bored!
I jz fleep de book n saw a lot of calculation..
OMG!I hate calculation since I dun luv maths...
haiz...wish me gud luck in sem 2 ba~~~kakakakka^^
huhu~wo go lunch...
dear..me..n dg...3 of us go lunch~~><
erm..2dy lunch nt reali taste gud neh...haiz~~
wat can I say?I'm de 1 who plan n suggest 2 go ther..
sweet sweet lunch~dunno y 2dy dg talk less whn we havin lunch..normally dg talk a lot..bt jz nw she seems weird...
n yet..omg..i gets mad whn i c de folder in ur hp!!!mr.tan
i can't xplain y i gets mad ..bt pls..delete it ..ok?
kakakaka..dg wanna went 2 toilet..
n I request her 2 go at de shop de toilet as she wanted 2 go college immediately jz 4 Toilet~~oh my dear..troublesome neh
whn dg walk in de shop toilet 2 c de condiion whether 2 decide 2 use it o nt..
dear kiss me..kakakakka~~~
de shop assistant=indonesian maid jz behind dear..wahahah~~
she saw dear kiss me~~kakakakak~~~
sweet sweet lunch~happy!!^^
eat n eat..talk n talk ..times up..12.25pm
I hv class at 1pm...n dear hv at 1.30pm...
pity him hv 2 wait alone 4 his class..i wanna stay v him..
bt dg scared dun hv suitable seat at dkb since de chairs hv been replaced v other design tat r more troublesome!!hahaha
sry dear hv leave u alone!I dun wan it 2...
haiz..so tired~~reali tired~~
write later ya~~~

到底要什么？

我到底要什么啊？到底怎样做我才会开心？
对你~对不起。。我伤害你。。
我和你又在一起了。。。
昨天你的确给我很不一样的感觉。。
可是今天我睡醒后。。。
一切。。一切。。
好像打回原型。。。
那种可怕的感觉又回来了。。。
找不到你。。联络不上你。。
还有很多。。。都是我怕的。。
为什么我在麻坡的时候这些都没有发生。。。
可是我回来这里。。。
全部都发生了。。
到底你现在把我当成什么。。。。
我不在的时候。。。
你在会想起我吗。。。
有一首歌。。。
别在寂寞时说爱我。。。
难道真的是这样吗？？可以不要吗？？
我很怕上次那种上新的感觉。。
超怕。。。我好不容易才走得出来。。。
现在你答应我的。。。我相信。。。
请你。。。不要再让我走进那伤心的感觉了好吗？
我真的好不容易才走得出来。。。